Dunno What To Name This Post So Derp
I wish I could put my actual feelings here.
Like, not just write out things that somewhat represent my feelings. But just let my heart do the writing.
But if I actually try to do that all I end up with is kf jslkfjlaowihoeaifhjlsjgh lsjfls jfls kjfwoithjowisjfd kv.
I miss you. My best friend. My partner in crime.
I wish I could go back and fix everything.
I wish... for you. I don't know. To hear from you. Even though I can't respond.
It's been 21 days. 39 left.
I wish I knew you were feeling as terrible as I am and that's really awful of me. I'm so awful.
I wish I knew... how you feel at all.
I wish you would come back and do that thing that you would do that made me smile. Which was pretty much everything, but mostly I mean the thing with my face and stuff. The voice you would speak in. I miss it all. I miss you. So. Damn. Much. Not always. But a lot of the time.
Maybe I should just get used to losing best friends. This is the third time it's happened, I think. Maybe fourth. I dunno.
Maybe someday I'll get used to being abandoned.
What a sad existance.,
I love you.
~Molly